Odd sensation. .. what exactly am I afraid of? It's like when your a kid afraid to go to the dentist. No sane reason behind it. Just irrational, gut fear. It's my bogey man. So grown up Lois knows all this. And yet here I am. .. sitting in the dark. .. crying. It's no big deal, I am going to be fine...I am always fine... No answers to be had right now. 9 am surgery prep, which includes placing a hook (seriously that's what they call it) then off to surgery 11:30. It should take about an hour. So I should be out and home by 2pm? ... maybe I can sleep now. ...
Praying your surgery went well. I am sure I'll be apprehensive too before surgery, that's normal. . What I am really scared of is the radiation. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteIsn't it funny how we each have our personal bogey man? For me it was surgery (which obviously I got through so silly me) for some it is the cancer itself, others the chemo or the drugs and still others radiation. For each of us there is fear that we can concur! (Or survive) hugs Linda, you have walked this journey well.
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