See now that sounded bad...the reality is not so much. When this all started I thought my newly minted husband would go down for the count! Having lost his entire family to cancer and him being who he is... I was not encouraged, he made a cocoon, but then like a butterfly
He emerged! He has done so very much! Tried so very hard! This process is definitely changing our relationship...
The other people...let me first say I am a pain in the Ass! I get frustrated and the people who are in my line of fire pay for that (character flaw)... which brings me to my Mom dunDundundah... she has graciously let me stay and hole up here. She wants to mother me ,I want to be left alone! it really is an age old battle with us... I see the pain in her eyes, the pain I don't want to touch her, but because she is my mother it cannot help but land there...and here my dogs play! Somehow instinctively knowing it's okay, Gramma will make it better, we can relax...so she and I do this battle dance with words...I should be somehow nicer, better, I am as always though thankful to her... I love her... my sister, from a far making me feel part of her life...loved...we are better sisters now I think than ever and that is a good thing...my son, 3000 miles is a great insulator. I would like to believe the nature of our relationship has stayed the same...newest to my inner circle Cyndi, she has seen more of me than than I normally allow and how thankful am I that she has chosen to be there!!! There are so many wonderful people in my life! These are just the ones I torture!!! I am so deeply thankful that you have chosen to hover around me......
I was diagnosed with breast cancer and I believe everything happens for a reason and that the significant things have lessons for us. So At the suggestion of one of my clients. I decided to chronicle my journey. I am no writer, it is raw, it is in the moment. I hope that this blog besides being therapeutic for me is somehow helpful for those who decide to join my journey...
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Husbands and other people who are hovering...
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