Remember that saying? I used to think well you can't really do that so you will never really know, right? Then here I am normally high energy, happy, upbeat, an embracer of life! Chemo has introduced me to another aspect, low energy, many things seem so very hard, feelings of inadequacy... these are in general feelings I am unfamiliar with. I now have a new appreciation for those who travel that road... I have to sometimes do a lot of self talk, listening to funny music, do things I don't feel quite up for. I now feel even more strongly a need to help and encourage others!
<3 you are doing great. no two peoples journey is the same, but my first advice would to be to throw out your old measuring stick. This is a whole new world. in this world, we celebrate everything. You didn't throw up today? YAY YOU. You pooped (and it wasn't an "experience". YEEHAW! There will be bad days and better days. Honor the process and what you mind and your body need. Know that you are not alone. You have a number of us out here who have traveled this road (or one very similar to it) and we are with you in spirit. Holler if you need help, a virtual hug or an inappropriate joke. ;-) Just keep fighting the good fight!! xox
ReplyDeleteI should probably mention/share. I chronicled (and continue to chronicle) my journey here educatoraspatient.com.
DeleteDarci, thank you! I always smile when I see your comments and read your post. You are truly strong in the face of adversity. I have never been someone who journals and if I couldn't do it on my phone would not still. So much I do is in the moment. Having said that. The lesson of living in this place called cancer is so very hard. I am trying to, but it so far the hardest. Hugs to YOU!
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