the beginning of my journey or why did I go to the doctor?

I said to my husband(husband because after 21 years together we recently married so I would have insurance)" you can now go to the doctor" he said " I will after you do" (I have not been for other than random incidents for 25years) SO I said "done!" The next day with my new found insurance I made appointments and off to the doctors I went...New fangled insurance computer kicked out all the test that a women of my age should have including but not limited to a mammogram. I have several clients that are mammogram techs and even though I had never had one, I wasn't scared or even concerned..  the mammogram itself was like Boob twister it didn't hurt our was not really uncomfortable it was amusing! Breast on plate plate now lean in, now turn your head, now tip head back, is your arm steady, compresses  plate. Hold! :-) they said 2 weeks for results...2 days later they called, you need an ultrasound ...still unphased, I set up this next appointment(they need a base line I have never had this before) my dogs were in the car we were going hiking after... so ultrasound tech was stoic(seriously I can make anyone laugh she wasn't having any of it) she finished said she'd be back not to get dressed right yet...okay...she comes back says the radiologist wants to see me...okay...get dressed another girl takes me to the radiologist(at this point I am chatting with the new girl I am still la tee da...I sit in front of the radiologist she has my mammogram and ultrasounds up on her screen(my breast look so cool!) Then she says" this is a cancerous mass. these are the reasons I believe this" and she keeps talking! And I here the Charlie Brown teacher voice...in my head...I am thinking "have to tell Kelly I have cancer"....meanwhile she says"you need a biopsy" we have these two times I said well the first(which was right away) wouldn't do I have clients that day I chose the second 2 weeks out...my second thought(how am I going to make this work for my clients!) Yes I am CRAZY!... Kaiser calls the next day " Why is your appointment so far out?" we moved it...